Backwards

Now I will tell you a little more about myself. I type slower than I think and I transpose many letters. So a blanket apology.
I have been married and divorced twice and apparently I suck at it, though I did like being married. The past 7 years I have been trying to figure out where I want to be literally, and figuratively. So I am planning, yet again, to go to school. And, yet again, I am looking for work. Right now I need something that will sustain me while I am going to school. Doesn't have to be much, just allow me to pay my bills. I figure I can get through school in 5 years or less.

And then, where do I wan to live? I live close to my family and will continue to do that as long as my mother remains alive, but she is 86, and well, she is 86. So I want to live in a fairly temperate climate, where I can grow a decent garden. I grew up in the deep south and was raised on home grown vegetables. And I now live in the Pacific Northwest, where you can grow some stuff, but not the really hot weather stuff, like good tomatoes and okra and southern peas- black eye peas, field peas, crowder peas, butter beans, lady peas. And tomatoes that taste sweet and ripen mid summer, not just in time for the first frost like they do here. And lots of corn.

And I miss living outside. It generally isn't warm enough at night to really stay outside into the evenings. I am thinking more Southwest that Southeast- less humid. As I get older the humidity makes it harder for me to breathe.

I have siblings that live here, but 2 are retired and spend time in Mexico and Yuma in the winter.

What else about me? Hmmm, I am a non-christian, hard core, left wing liberal. I follow an earth based religious path, but I don't think it is all that incompatible with other religions. I believe my God is the same God and the Christian God, I just don't assign gender, and definition. I believe God is unknowable and undefinable, not some guy living in the clouds, but an enitity that exists in how you see her (okay, or him). I prefer to see her as a her. And she exists in the clouds and water and air and sun. By assigning a gender to God, it helps me identify with God. But I don't actually believe this entity has gender. Does that make any sense? It does to me, and that is what matters. I believe that god is the source of all things, therefore, gave us intelligence and reason and so when scientists say the earth is billions of years old, it is with the intelligence that god gave them they made these conclusions. ANd I do believe that life begins at conception, but that that life does not take priority over another life until it is viable. So, until it is viable, it is not a baby. Women should have the right to make decisions over their bodies and lives.

I figured I would through out all my beliefs right up front and offend you now rather than later. Then if you stick around you know what you might expect.

I am loving and compassionate and I do not hold grudges. I think it is okay to do things that benefit the greatest number of people, and some things that may border on socialism, if it is for the right reasons. Eliminating poverty, creating an affordable health care system for all citizens of this country. Those things help everyone, not just the target audience.

I am not anti war across the board. I am wildly opposed to the Iraq war, but supported us in Afghanistan. I think war must be the last possible option, not the first. And I think talking to your enemy is absolutely neccessary to avoid war if possible.

I believe that people are mostly good.

Blessed be.