The List

Do you have a life list? Some call it a bucket list, but I call it a life list. It changes every time I write it down.
Here are some things I would like to do.
Lie in the Southwest for a while.
Spend a Christmas in a unique place.
Go to Ireland, Wales and Scotland
Go to Tuscany
Go to Provence.
Remodel a vintage motorhome for me.
Open a store.
Have sex again.
Finish college of some sort.

What is on yours?

Too Much

I have too much crap. I missed the hoarding gene by a mere fraction of DNA. I didn't get the emotional attachment to every piece of tinfoil that ever passed through my life. I sold my business and home 2 years ago, and I moved close to my sister, and we sort of spent the year thrifting. But when I moved, I went from a 3 bedroom house to a 2 bedroom apartment. And a really big storage unit. But, boy do I have a bunch of little doo dads, from little tins, jars, and containers, to various things I got a wild hair about at the time. When I really like something, I tend to buy them everytime I see them. Like stove top espresso makers. I have several. You never know when you need a back up. Or 3. Those rug punch hooks that use yarn to make rugs, and they operate like an hand beater. You spin the handle in one hand, while holding it with the other. They are just cool, so I buy them. I also have several needle punch needles. Sometimes, I do that so I can show people how to do something and then just let them keep the tool. When I only paid 50 cents for something, I don't mind giving it away. But it adds up in my apartment. So I am trying to destash. My goal is to be able to live comfortably in a studio apartment. That is huge for me. And it means parting with so.Much.Crap. Oy.

Tuesday

I have very little interesting to say today. I worked at job #1 yesterday and today. Will go to #2 tomorrow through Saturday. #1 is a job that makes microphones for listening to whales. I am the entire factory. The second is for a local RV park and is entirely different and I really like it. While one job is very non-public the other is a very public and so it is a nice balance. I like customer service and delaing with people but it is also really nice to just work alone and not have to deal with anyone but my boss, and somedays I only have to deal with him a little bit. ANd I like that. Some days he is sort of hard to tolerate- he micromanages everything and drives me nuts. He is also funny and interesting.

But I am seriously looking for a full time job that will support me while I go to school so I can get a real job. I would like to keep #1 job, because he pays me really well, and makes it affordable for me to take a lesser paying job. But I am sort of tired of working 7 days a week. I want some fun.

But I really want a job that pays enough for me to be safe and comfortable, and that allows me to take a little trip now and then and save a little for retirement, and buy a new pair of shoes if I want. I don't need alot, I just need enough.

Backwards

Now I will tell you a little more about myself. I type slower than I think and I transpose many letters. So a blanket apology.
I have been married and divorced twice and apparently I suck at it, though I did like being married. The past 7 years I have been trying to figure out where I want to be literally, and figuratively. So I am planning, yet again, to go to school. And, yet again, I am looking for work. Right now I need something that will sustain me while I am going to school. Doesn't have to be much, just allow me to pay my bills. I figure I can get through school in 5 years or less.

And then, where do I wan to live? I live close to my family and will continue to do that as long as my mother remains alive, but she is 86, and well, she is 86. So I want to live in a fairly temperate climate, where I can grow a decent garden. I grew up in the deep south and was raised on home grown vegetables. And I now live in the Pacific Northwest, where you can grow some stuff, but not the really hot weather stuff, like good tomatoes and okra and southern peas- black eye peas, field peas, crowder peas, butter beans, lady peas. And tomatoes that taste sweet and ripen mid summer, not just in time for the first frost like they do here. And lots of corn.

And I miss living outside. It generally isn't warm enough at night to really stay outside into the evenings. I am thinking more Southwest that Southeast- less humid. As I get older the humidity makes it harder for me to breathe.

I have siblings that live here, but 2 are retired and spend time in Mexico and Yuma in the winter.

What else about me? Hmmm, I am a non-christian, hard core, left wing liberal. I follow an earth based religious path, but I don't think it is all that incompatible with other religions. I believe my God is the same God and the Christian God, I just don't assign gender, and definition. I believe God is unknowable and undefinable, not some guy living in the clouds, but an enitity that exists in how you see her (okay, or him). I prefer to see her as a her. And she exists in the clouds and water and air and sun. By assigning a gender to God, it helps me identify with God. But I don't actually believe this entity has gender. Does that make any sense? It does to me, and that is what matters. I believe that god is the source of all things, therefore, gave us intelligence and reason and so when scientists say the earth is billions of years old, it is with the intelligence that god gave them they made these conclusions. ANd I do believe that life begins at conception, but that that life does not take priority over another life until it is viable. So, until it is viable, it is not a baby. Women should have the right to make decisions over their bodies and lives.

I figured I would through out all my beliefs right up front and offend you now rather than later. Then if you stick around you know what you might expect.

I am loving and compassionate and I do not hold grudges. I think it is okay to do things that benefit the greatest number of people, and some things that may border on socialism, if it is for the right reasons. Eliminating poverty, creating an affordable health care system for all citizens of this country. Those things help everyone, not just the target audience.

I am not anti war across the board. I am wildly opposed to the Iraq war, but supported us in Afghanistan. I think war must be the last possible option, not the first. And I think talking to your enemy is absolutely neccessary to avoid war if possible.

I believe that people are mostly good.

Blessed be.

A new year

In the vast number of bloggers out there, what do I have to say that is any different? Probably nothing. But sometimes, putting something down in words makes it more real and guides out intentions. SO here are my intentions for the coming year.
*I need to get a new job that will sustain me while I go to school.
*I need to enroll and GO to school, not just talk about it. Seriously, I am 50, it is overdue!
*I need to get this messy house in hand and do the selling of crap to supplement the bank account.
*I need to be more social. I am a hermit. Not good.
*I need to try to squeeze in creative time. It always gets left in the dirt.

That is enough of a list for now, but it is a start.